Wowsers, where has the last year gone. Zoey and Stella will be 1 in a little less than a month. I know I’d feel like this but I am really glad I am here now, eventhough I really wish I could go back and “see” what life was like over the last 11 months. Its a total blur. I remembered a lot with Lucy and now, next to nothing of the twins’ first year. Sad, but I guess necessary. The fact that I have literally 1 or 2 memories I can call up myself from the twins’ 1st 6 months tells you something about what my brain and body was doing that my brain literally didn’t build any memories. Or maybe I blocked them out!? Post traumatic stress anyone?? HA!
On a side note, the few memories I have are from the first few weeks: Sitting alone with the babies in a silent dark NICU room. My Dad sitting on the couch with me on his computer giving JD and myself (and everyone else we know) personality tests while the kids slept when he stayed with us (sorry Mom, no memories of you with us, except one with you standing in the doorway of our house strangely). Jump to Halloween- bringing Lucy around the neighborhood and having a good time, but wierdly I don’t have any memory of where the twins were (in the stroller?). Next memory is Thanksgiving dinner at my parents’ house in Ballston Lake with Brian and Lacy. Anyway, you get the picture. I have to really sit here and work at it to recall any memories. Pictures help, but even then, its like I don’t recognize myself.
But why should I? I am a completely different person to the core after this year. More on that later I suppose or maybe not. It will take some serious time and reflection to figure out what the hell happened to me this year. One thing is for sure: I like who I’ve grown into this year a million times better than who I was before, and for that, I will be thankful my entire life. I am more humble, don’t take things as granted and am less judgmental.
So, an update! We are almost there girlies! This first birthday thing will truly feel like a celebration for the mom and dad, as they say!
People always ask, How are the girls? And my reply is, Oh, their good. Generic, boring and well, they are good anyway. Here is more of a little peak at all of them lately.