Man has it been one hell of a week. All of us have been sick, crabby and generally not at our best. Sleep has been scarce when it has been needed the most. Sleep deprivation is setting in again and its not a good place to be. Tonight alone we’ve had 3+ hrs. of 2 crying babies while trying to do dinner, etc. The ironic thing is that Jason took today off so I can try and rest and get better…
These days I feel like I am treading water as a parent. Barely doing the minimum. Putting on the TV a little too much to occupy Lucy while I tend to overly fussy babies. Lucy is also getting a head start on that second year it seems and testing all kinds of limits, including hitting the babies. Its just been one thing after another really and it has left me, and I know Jason too, feeling threadbare, physically and emotionally.
Right after the twins were born I used to worry a lot about everyone getting enough positive attention or what they needed from me. When I asked our pediatrician if she thought the twins were getting enough holding time because I felt torn in a million different directions during the day, she simply said, don’t forget they have each other for a reason. I often go back to that and find comfort, but lately I have started to really worry again that no one is getting enough. I feel like I am putting out fires all day long and never really living with my kids in the moment. I know its temporary and there is really no way to give everyone equal time, but does anyone have any tips on how to make the time quality, since quantity is sometimes not an option?
This is hopefully the end of a bummer of a week. What I do know is that what goes up, must definitely come down at some point.
What went up, definitely came down this weekend. We had a really great one- art museum, farmers market, lots of time outside, the Zoo and grilling. So thankful we have healed and things are getting back to normal. Staying inside and not going too many places the last couple of weeks just about killed me but it was worth it to get everyone back on track. Finally it seems we are all healthy and ready to take on the world again. Ready girls?